|watercolor on paper 9x12|
This evening I had to have a reality check with myself. I realized: I have to be honest about what i can and can not do on a daily basis. I am ambitious, but i don't have superpowers. I am ambitious, but sometimes it gets me into trouble. By aiming too high, I set myself up for failure. This is something i learned the last time i did my daily painting project, working, scanning, typing frantically, tears in my eyes, delirious tired.. sure, I can paint a painting every day....but just barely. Some days, it's a miracle that i can even find the time to wipe the boogers out of my sleepy eyes. Stacking even more responsibility onto an already full dance card leaves me with two left feet. I do a lot to keep this ship afloat, hustle hard to keep my animals, my bandmates, my friends, my family and all of my customers satisfied. I work a hell of a lot of miracles around here. But I admit: I just can't do it all. It feels good to say it aloud, to let go. So repeat after me: I can't do everything. I can't paint a painting every day and, on top of it, write something meaningful every day. It's just impossible. So there. Now, it's out in the open. This time around, things are different. I'm a little smarter. And as i wait impatiently for today's watercolor to dry, you'll have to wait until tomorrow to see it. That's just how it's gonna have to be.